Pop superstar Britney Spears was in a thoughtful mood after Christmas. She opened her heart in a lengthy Instagram post in which she explained why she was taking a break from her music and performances , while also describing a crisis of faith that put her to the test, but allowed her to rediscover his determination. The singer lashed out at her family while claiming that the past year has been full of twists and turns.
She gives advice based on her sad experiences of the past 3 years
The note posted on Monday, December 27 opens with suggestions and advice : “When you wake up, practice… When life gets tough, pray. If you are unsure, pray. When you are happy, pray. God is always with us. “ These slides have led to a long note in which the 40-year-old singer spoke of a time when his faith was tested .
“I had an experience three years ago where I stopped believing in God! From all angles I was being harmed for no reason and my family was harming me, ”Spears wrote without describing a specific situation. “I went into shock and the way I faced was false denial. It was too hard to face. The circle was then closed and my heart took over and I became a lioness. “
Ms Spears has spoken more freely since a judge ended a 13-year legal guardianship that allowed her father, Jamie Spears, and a group of lawyers to control almost every aspect of personal life and professional star. During her time of trouble, Spears said she often cried alone and kept all of the pain to herself, lamenting that she was never able to face the person who hurt her. Instead, she wrote that she took the “everything is fine” false denial approach ”because she said she did not want to provoke conflict.
Torn between pain and the desire to be kind
Inside, however, Spears said she was “absolutely screaming… I wanted to be nice, but what they did to my heart was unforgivable !!!! “ . And while for the most part the pop star didn’t go into specifics, she noted that she asked for 13 years to be able to perform new songs and remixes of her old songs , and claimed that she didn’t only had two months off between his four years of residency shows in Las Vegas.
“And every time I asked, I was told ‘no’! It was a stunt to fail me when I knew exactly what I wanted my fans to see and it didn’t make sense for TV shows to showcase my music with remixes of all my productions… so say no to the person who owns the music! !! “ . Spears pointed out that her younger sister, Jamie Lynn, was allowed to remix her songs, but Britney was not. At one point, the singer even thought she would get “more respect” for doing a Playboy page than for writing a book.
A combination of factors drove Britney to take the break
As for those wondering why Spears has seemingly turned her back on music – she hasn’t released a new album since Glory in 2016, and hasn’t performed on stage since ending her four-year residency in Las. Vegas, Britney: Piece of Me, in 2017 , and the cancellation of a planned sequel, Domination, in 2019 – the singer said it was a combination of factors . “So much time wasted just to embarrass and humiliate myself and I guess it seems strange to most now why I don’t even make music anymore ,” she wrote.
She adds that after what she has been through, she is afraid of people and the world of music , which is why she took a long hiatus from her recordings and concerts. “They really hurt me !!!!!! Not making music anymore is my way of saying ‘Fk you’ in a way, when it only benefits my family by ignoring my real job, ” she said.
A new challenge: overcome your fears
The note, she said, was an attempt to empathize with other people whose faith has been tested like hers. “Believe me, I know it and it’s no fun. ” ” The last year has been a growth for me… I still have a way to go! “. Spears said her goal for 2022 is to push herself harder and do things that scare her , “but not too much,” she added.
She goes on to say, “We’re just people and I’m not superwoman,” she wrote. “But I know what makes me happy and brings me joy and I try to meditate on those places and thoughts that allow me to experience them !” ”.
In a post last week, Spears filmed herself in front of the bathroom mirror singing a few high notes and listing some of her accomplishments, while promising to be her “own cheerleader.” “ in the future.
Admitting to her own insecurities, Spears said in her Monday note that she realizes she had “acted like an obnoxious 8-year-old” when speaking about her career milestones last week, but “honestly, ma family made me ashamed and hurt me deeply… so bragging and seeing my past accomplishments reflected on me has helped me! “ . Go tell Britney to close her story telling.